Oh, Maui! Why can't you be closer?

Man, I have been really bad about posting recently. I've got a lot on my plate. The funny thing is I'm stressed out about it and the one thing that really helps me get rid of that stress - blogging - has been difficult for me. For whatever reason, it's hard for me to give myself what I really need. It's almost as if I feel the need to punish myself. I need to change that.

What all is on my plate?

• My preschool is going to be in a parade this weekend at our town's summer celebration. I figured it would be a good way for us to get out into the community - to show people we're still around. I didn't realize how much work it was going to be. There have been so many decisions that, unfortunately, had to be made by the entire board, which means we've had about a bazillion board meetings since the end of the school year. Decisions like: Should we include the model of the church on our float? It's on a trailer that's not big enough to include the kids, what do we do? What are we going to use to decorate? Who's going to paint? Who's going to get the markers? twizzlers? labels? Oh. My. Word. I'm so ready for this parade to be over...
• Instead of hiring an assistant teacher and putting all of our students in one class, we're going to break them into two classes so I can teach them alone. I'm at peace with this decision, but now I have to decide who's going to get their second choice instead of their first choice. I don't want to lose any students. Also...I really wanted an assistant teacher. I really don't want to be on an island any more. :(
• I have six 3-5 page papers to write by July 20.
• My husband and I are moving to a house on July 23. We're excited about the move. The house is in a neutral location, and it'll be cheaper; however, if our landlady doesn't find someone to rent our apartment, we'll have to pay for the next year. That could be $4500 spent on nothing. We can afford it - we're not going to have to declare bankruptcy because of it - but I'd rather have that money to spend on something worthwhile.
• My husband and I are wanting to start a family. Because I'm the girl in this relationship, I'm starting to worry about all the things future moms worry about. What if we can't get pregnant? What if I get really sick? What if there's something wrong with the baby? What if we're not ready to take care of another human? I need to just relax. I'll work on that.

So many things....I'll survive. I just need to keep breathing. Also, a vacation would be nice. We're talking about a day trip somewhere. We'll see what happens. Getting away would be perfect. I miss Maui at times like these. Waking up to this:


every morning would be absolute heaven.